Everyone has their own unique grief cloak. As a parent grieving child loss, there isn’t a book or guide that will tell you what you need to understand, or what actions you should take to heal. Our minds are helpless to understand a tragedy of this magnitude. We plan for our lives to be joyful, we don’t plan to lose our children, ever.
I now understand that my son may not be with me in a physical body, but his spirit is very much alive and with me. I still have a relationship with my son. I may not have the same conversations with my heavenly son as I did before, but I feel his presence and his love.
The shock of grief has many side effects; confusion, forgetfulness, short attention span, and pain. This is not an all inclusive list, but most grieving parents will recognize these grief symptoms.