I don’t know if we every truly heal from child loss. I know I am forever changed by this experience. Every day I think about my son when I awake and he is one of my last thoughts before I fall asleep at night. As a mother, I think about what he could be doing if he was still here on earth. He sends me many unique signs to let me know he is watching over me. Every person grieves in his or her unique way. There is no timetable for grieving and healing. Only those who have lost a child can understand how much effort is required to continue living when they have gone before you to heaven’s gate.